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+ Over the mountains and the sea
jyeah, it's sucks
to be exact, left another 4months to Nlevels.to be exact, it's already 3 and a half months.
to be more exact, it's going to turned 4months real soon
see how fast time flies.
and all i can say is, in physically, im doing perfectly fine.
and in mentally, it's totally sucks. why?
because i'm not helping myself to be strong and encounter everything. i forced myself to be okay when i'm not.
yes, i am pretending
it may sounds weird and yes, it is.
i pray as hard as i can,
thankful to the one above for creating me.
i lead the life and it seemed that i chose the paths which led me to what i am now.
i'm insecured and guilty with my feelings.
these sentence have been playing in my mind every now and then.
should i give him a chance?
or should i trust him again?
or should i just give up in everything?
it's not that i don't want to give him any chances. it's not that i don't want to trust him anymore. it's too difficult to gain my trust on him.
it's just that i'm afraid that he will repeat his mistakes again.
forgive him is a yes, but to forget the incident completely is absolutely no.
im still thinking and wondering the reason why.
why must he did that to me?
why didn't he tell me the truth?
why must he twist the fact?
what makes him do that?
it's still in my mind till now and forever it will.
seriously.
and right NOW, i'm still thinking.
everyday reminisce about the past.
of a love we thought would last,
how we used to be when it was you and me.
how did it all disappear so fast.
there are days that i can't forget, there are things that i now regret
every night when i'm laying in my bed, i hear your voice going round in my head.
think of all the things i could have done and all those things i could have said.
i know now what i've got to do, it took time but now i've realised how much i'm missing you
p.s boy, if you know that i'm referring to you or you feel offended with my entry, IM SORRY!
to cut it short, i'm leading a very complicated life.