fall again

2010-05-01T12:07:00.002+08:00

hello hello!

i'll be deleting my facebook, tagged and some other sites.
and i wont make this blog private anymore.
or maybe delete this blog .
see how it goes (:
everything's gonna be new .

2010-04-30T14:31:00.002+08:00

hello hello people !

currently at Salimin's house with zie and aishah.

heh! :D
thanks for serving us with ice cream and snacks, amin!
♥

2010-04-23T20:11:00.001+08:00

someday, somehow im still confused with myself.
and i dont know why

2010-04-15T18:37:00.002+08:00

somehow i think im hurt again.
:(

2010-04-11T09:45:00.003+08:00

Happy 1st Month, baby!

thank you for everything.
thank you for loving me.
thank you for standing by me.
thank you for tolerating my nonsense.
thank you for being there for me when i need you.
there's nothing else i could say but this,
I LOVE YOU and i always do :D

2010-04-07T21:34:00.002+08:00

Helloh Readers ! (:

Im updating this blog,
As im lazy to update mine .
Ohh wait, SiaoMin's Here(:

This week might be baby's last week of holiday,
But this week, is my final week on this
Beautiful city .

I'll be moving out on the 18th of april .
Which means, I'll be missing baby alot ..
I mean, ALOTT .

My plan for this few days,
Till my final day .

11 April, Our 1 mnth Anni .
16 April, Final Comeback & Curtain Call . There goes my career(:
17 April, Attending Bby's bdae party .
18 April, GoodBye Singapore & GoodBye Baby .

Im soo gonna miss her ..
Iloveyou,
Imissyou,

Bhy, when im gone,
Do take good care of yourself alright .

Ketahuilah, walaupun jauh di pandangan,
Hati tetap disampingmu selalu .
Cintamu bagaikan bidadari,
Ku Cinta Pada Kamu(:

2010-04-07T14:54:00.002+08:00

hello, selamat afternoon readers!
i'm forcing myself to update this blog.
and i'm feeling oh-so-lethargic these few days.
don't ask me why .

okay , bye! :D

2010-03-31T15:52:00.001+08:00

11 more days left! [you know i know k b?]
16 more days to LEGAL 18! :D
yay!

2010-03-31T11:32:00.003+08:00

someone laughed at me when i fall down TWICE on the ground.
someone laughed instead of helping.
oh, i miss rollerblading!
haha :D

2010-03-27T14:47:00.018+08:00

Let the pictures do the talking for today :D

2010-03-25T14:49:00.010+08:00

as i was browsing through all the pics folder,
suddenly i found this . haha!
my 17th birthday and haziq's 1st birthday celebration.
and some random pics (:

2010-03-22T11:55:00.011+08:00

second entry for today .
guess what? pictures taken few years back .
back in secondary school, zaman kentalku! :D
lol!

2010-03-12T12:31:00.003+08:00

this is the song, lala lala, elmo's song
this is the song, lala lala, elmo's song
lalala lalala la
lalala lalala laaaaaaaaaaa
he loves to sing , lala lala , elmo's song
lala lala lala lala elmo's song
he wrote the music , he wrote the words
that elmo's song !

im oh so addicted to Elmo .
and what i mean is , i love Elmo !

okaaaaaaaaaaaaaay ,
i think i wasted my own time going to school today .
which is for only 2hrs .
i failed my test . both of my test, DCS and PPR.
badly ! :(
i need to buck up before i go for attachment in June .

baby!
iloveyou boncet ♥

:(

2010-03-02T18:05:00.004+08:00

look at me and you'll see a very strong girl .
but look at me twice and stare, i'm weak .
i break down and cry most of the time .
for all these while, i'm pretending to be happy, but i'm not .

why am i doing this?
because for the sake of making people happy .

why am i pretending ?
because i don't want people to know that deep inside, im hurt .
because i don't want people to worry about me .

everytime i stood up by myself, i tend to fall .
again and again .
everything keeps repeating .

baby , look at me again and you'll know everything in my heart now .
:(

(:

2010-02-20T12:53:00.011+08:00

Let's the pictures do the talking first .

okay, pictures done! :D
anyways, pictures taken during the long holidays .
i'll update more soon!

iloveyouSHORTY! <3

sorry baby !

2010-02-12T14:15:00.005+08:00

Syuhaidah is such a bitch for forgetting her little niece's 2nd birthday .
oh, that's me ! =.=

HAPPY 2nd belated BIRTHDAY, ITZEL! :D

iloveyou iloveyou and iloveyou .
& only God knows how much i miss you baby!

i miss muhammad mumin bin bapaknye

2010-02-10T18:47:00.001+08:00

chun sen bullied me today in DCS lab :(
he kept pinching and scratching my hand . hmph!

oh lovelies (:

2010-02-06T13:54:00.004+08:00

Picture taken during PM2 lesson on Friday . ilovethesepeople! <3

it's been a long time since i updated my blog .
i was just too busy with schoolwork and too many things running through my mind . furthermore, my mind went blank .
school was okay , more tests coming up this month . and my class was slacking.
:(

and yes,
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, YURI EDDY !
may God bless you (:

TGIF

2010-01-29T18:43:00.006+08:00

Thank God It's Friday :D
at LAST !

done with pictures.
taken during DCS practical .
when the whole class is not paying attention (:

2010-01-09T14:48:00.002+08:00

there's a lot of things that i'm aiming for this year.

1. pass my car basic theory test.
2. get at least gpa 3.4 for this term.
3. go for industrial attachment.
4. graduate from school and go to Poly.

okay, there's still lots of things in my mind.
and i think it's not the right time to put it up here! ((:
heh! goodbye readers <3

reminder (:

2009-12-16T19:47:00.001+08:00

this blog will be in hiatus from tomorrow till next week.
sorry for the inconvenience caused!
take care, all readers :D

lost again .

2009-12-03T17:17:00.002+08:00

sad, disappointed & angry .
too many things happened today.

first, i screwed up my SAQs for PEQ.
i just don't know what's wrong with me today.
maybe, i had insufficient time to study.
haish!

second, i didn't get the chance to go for attachment.
which means, i was separated with Yamuna, Shahirah & Ryan.
they're the ones whom im closed with.
they're the ones who understand me.
they're the ones where i always tell my secrets.
just imagine my life without them
:(

i lost another group of friends again .
thanks eh! :(((

2009-11-30T14:28:00.003+08:00

my second post of the day .
im mugging at home for my final exams tomorrow.
and i'm 75% done with studying .
i have lots more to go!

i have alot of things to be done this month .
i have to squeeze everything as i'll be busy from 14dec onwards .
reason being , i'll be away for attachment for 6months at tuas .
so, i'm afraid that i won't have the time to update this blog .

im oh-so not ready for the attachment.
but i have to give it a try .
:(

Happy birthday, darlings !

2009-11-30T13:58:00.012+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, EKAAAAAAAAA!
May God Bless You
&
Wish you the BEST for your O's results
ILOVEYOU! :D

29th November

HAPPY 7th BIRTHDAY, ELFIE MARTIN!
iloveyou dearly ((:

26th November

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY , FARIDAH!
may God bless you! (:

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY , EDWIN !
may God bless you
&
wish you the best for your N's results
(:

22nd November

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, IKIN!
may God bless You
&
last long with Mariani ((:

21st November

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, 'BRO' DE ZHI
God bless! (:

14th November

HAPPY 7th BIRTHDAY, NANA!
May God bless you
&
ILOVEYOU!(:

2009-11-04T16:31:00.003+08:00

i'm under peer pressure now!
i'm utterly disappointed with my friends.
i don't know why but they're just putting pressure on me each day .
all i can do is , cry to myself.
why am i always the one who faced this problems?
why can't it be others?
i don't know what to do and i don't know who i should turned to.
no one understands my feelings now.
if only i could talk to God, i would tell Him how i feel everyday. haish! :(
if you people happened to read this entry and somehow offend you, i'm sorry!

2009-10-05T16:01:00.003+08:00

helloooooooooooooooooooooooo October! :D
as you can see, it's been a long time since i last update this blog. i've been spending most of the time during holidays to finish up my projects and assignments. and all assignments/projects are due this month. Talking about school, i realised that i've not done with my resume. reason why i need those doucments; it is for my early attachment. only 10 students per class are qualified for the attachment. *prays hard* i've been rejecting all outings and stuffs. so yea, i think this is the only chance to apologise to those people. now, i'm squeezing everything. [you know what i mean, last minute work] =.= ah, damn!

too many events this month. *sigh*
anyways, Happy Birthday to all October babies!
may God bless you and i love you people! :D
[i know it's freaking late to wish them but who cares]

oh yea, i'll be updating the camp photos soon.
sorry for the delay, darlinnnngs! (:

2009-08-22T15:14:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY, Qamarul Arifin !

wish you all the best in everything you do (:

:D

2009-08-21T19:22:00.008+08:00

done with photos.
photos taken at Marina Barrage with beloved class, JC0901T on 19Aug (:

next!
school was okay except that we had tests almost everyday.
and school's schedule is quite tight for now. lots of assignments and projects to be done this month :(

2009-08-08T12:30:00.007+08:00

"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend." -William Blake

2009-08-07T18:41:00.004+08:00

the bestest guy friend (:

"friendship isn't about whom you have known the longest.
it's about who came, and never left your side"

2009-07-31T18:31:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, momma ! :D
iloveyou.
you're the best mum in the world ((:

2009-07-24T18:10:00.002+08:00

i think this is the only time that i get to update this blog. i've been busy with school lately and my schedule is packed with assignments and project management.

talking about assignments, i have lots to do. i mean, finished it up.
- i'm left with 2 more P & ID diagrams to be drawn.
- report for friability test which to be handed in 2 weeks time
- another 2.5 rigs to be completed in 2 weeks

as for project management, i've been squeezing out my brain for this.
for this term, we have to do project management. which is, my group, will organise a camp; a leadership camp for the students.

- get supplier for food and beverages.
- produce flyers
- camp briefing for participants
- briefing for camp officer ; which is us!
- find location and room

tell me, people. can you handle this within 3 weeks? after 3 weeks, another task to do. oh, i just can't be bothered!

next, CA told us about the early Industrial Attachment at Jurong Island. and only a handful of students will be selected. (with good GPA, of course)
oh hello, i'm not ready for this. seriously, i need to buck up.

2009-06-09T18:26:00.003+08:00

first of all, i would like to wish

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY to Syafinah :D

wish you all the best in everything you do !

love you ((:

oh, Anugerah 2009 begins tonight.
i would like to say this,

please vote number 19, Kamsani Jumahat!
dont ask why. he has a great voice (:
woohoo! goodluck kamsani !!

2009-06-04T10:47:00.004+08:00

FINALLY !
my term 1 examinations are officially OVER. [gerek perr]
and recently, received the new timetable for new module for term 2.
everyday school starts at 8 and ends around 3 or 4.30 pm.
mdm chuminah told the class that the new module is much more easier than to compare the previous one. let's see if we can excel in this module :D

exam, exams, examssssssssss!

2009-05-08T11:04:00.006+08:00

let's the pictures do the talking first! (:

see, im fit to sit inside :D

guess, hat or bowl?

look at my new shoe that aunty bought for me!

pictures done! :D

exam, exam, examssssss!

exam is less than a month and i need to study really hard for my engineering science. *slaps forehead*

this is my schedule for the whole of next week.

monday - PIC phase test, engineering science class test, engineering science phase test
tuesday - chemistry practical
wednesday - chemistry class test
thursday - revision
friday - FFPS phase test

see that? okay, goooooooooood !

i dont't wish to talk about school anymore :(

2009-04-18T10:54:00.002+08:00

i would to take this opportunity to thank all those who wished me on 16 April. i really appreciate it :D

for text msg (followed by time)
eka, ibnu, wan, hidayah, shahirah, faez, ayul, mariani, huda, fazilah, fareha, khairiani, jannah, uncle sham, amirah, hilyah, shairi, sister, afifah, syafinah, imran, hidayah, hamidah, zubir, adek hanif, ipin.

in friendster
benson, yunyi, jiahui, fadhilla, chun sen.

in tagged
ah tong, travisoft, matthew, andrew, adnan, andy h, kazr, zuhaidah, justin, muhd s, justin, jonanthan chin fong, ehh? freakid?, faizal, shahril, nur aliff, sinned, kevin, hidayat, jor2, fiq rilek, jino, artraix, jason lee, jordan, maverick foo, syukri, sepet, andrew, azul, eugene, kai, daniel, gary, john, naitisan.

in advanced,
luthfi, amir

hey ladies :D

2009-04-07T14:09:00.002+08:00

to my lovely malay dance girls,

i wish you girls all the best for your SYF!

do your best, give all out ((:

dance with pride and dont forget to SMILE :D

i love you girls laa

((:

2009-04-03T16:51:00.001+08:00

13 more days!

second post, amcm?

2009-04-01T17:38:00.004+08:00

okay, fine! i'm bored.

to kill some times, let's countdown.

15 more days to sweet 17.

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

at last! :D

holidays? :D

2009-03-20T16:52:00.002+08:00

like finally, IT'S HOLIDAY!

be jealous people, be VERY jealous.

because, it's 3 weeks holiday! :D

2009-03-14T14:18:00.003+08:00

im out of words and i have nothing to say. everybody was looking at me once i stepped into the practical room. i looked at the watch on my hand and it shows 9am sharp. i was late to school , not 5-10 mins late BUT an hour late. CA didnt uttered any words and she looked at me with a smile. sheesh!

Goodbye Yuri Eddy.
It was really great to have you in my life for 2 years.
you know i love you so much! :((

OMG!

2009-02-03T18:16:00.003+08:00

OMG! i was selected to participate in the cross country. am i dreaming or what? had our 2.4km run around the track today and for girls, i came in 3rd place. i'm not suprised, though. 6 laps around the track is better than running outside the campus ((: then, lecturer made a selection. 10 students from my class will represents AHS in the cross country, and i'm of those students. the event will be held next thursday and i'll be having my training this thursday from 5 to 7 pm. ooh! wish me luck, people ! :DD

goodbye baby :(

2009-02-01T16:46:00.006+08:00

i miss hugging her.

i miss cuddling her.

i miss putting her to sleep.

i miss bringing her to take a short walk.

i miss kissing her.

i miss feeding her.

i miss playing with her.

i miss her voice.

i miss laughing with her.

i miss crying with her.

and i miss everything about her.

she's like an angel to us, bringing some love in the family.

the first day she came, i started to love her. i love her like my own sister.

but now, she left. all i could do now is, thinking about her.

i'm missing Itzel so much.

Happy New Year Darlings

2009-01-02T14:23:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all :D
may your year blessed with good deeds.
and of course, i love you all ((:

2008-11-30T12:23:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, Eka!

hey bitch! it's your birthday today. hope you're having fun :D

i love you!

2008-11-27T14:05:00.002+08:00

okay people.
this blog will be temporary set in hiatus as i need time to settle things down.
I'll be back when i want to (:
sorry for the inconvenience caused.
but please, do keep your tags coming in.
i'll reply as soon as possible! take care, readers.

with lots of love,
shuSYU

2008-10-28T12:03:00.003+08:00

okay people.

Baby Itzel turned 9 months on 25 October 2008.
see how much she has grown up.
no matter what happened between us, i will always love you :D

oh, hello

2008-10-24T10:50:00.013+08:00

today's entry will consists of what happened last few days.

23rd October 2008

i supposed to go out today but am lazy. for the whole day today, entertained little Itzel with her nonsense. haha! but it's cute, though! anyway, martin and amberline together with their mum came to my house. if you have been wondering who they are, you'll get to know them soon. it Itzel's biological siblings. but they looked oh-so-different from her! they were effing cute and damn irritating. -_- now, let the pictures do the talking.

oh, that's Amber. the dont-know-malay-language girl :D
oops~
and he's Elfie Martin. the bangla boy

sungguh sepet matanya! :D

couple in red. oh-so-cute la kan :D

she's hiding behind Martin just because [please continue]

the three cute-yet-irritating siblings.

"how do i look?" amber says

martin says, "i want to take with meimei"

martin says, "mei mei, im just behind you."

22nd October 2008

HAPPY 10th BIRTHDAY, Nurul Nisa (:
may your wishes come true.
i will always love you and promise me to study hard!
*hugs&kisses*

weekdays such a bore! i've been rotting at home. *oh, who cares*

2008-10-21T15:41:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY, FAREHA!
may all your wishes come true and last long with Aiman :D
i miss you, friend! and iloveyou (:

okay done. as you can see, i just cut my fringe. and dad commented that i looked like a china girl. OMG! shall not elaborate on this. -_- anyway, im going to have an interview at Breeks Cafe.
i seriously need some cash with me now!

woohoo!

2008-10-14T18:34:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, IDAFIH! :D

may all your dreams come true.

im done with birthday! next, i am proud to say that students taking N'levels and O'levels examination have graduated from school on 14th October 2008! so people, be very jealous.

apart from that, i swear, i gonna miss all my friends and teachers who have been there for me throughout these four years. thank you!

2008-10-11T20:46:00.008+08:00

haha! i love that girl. the cutest yet the most irritating baby at home. she's turning 9 months this month. fast eh? so here, more pictures of her watching HI5

pictures done! that's for today :D

2008-10-01T19:04:00.002+08:00

To all beloved muslim friends,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin.
If there's anything that i did, or say which may have hurt your feelings in any way,
i seek for forgiveness.

Once again, Selamat Hari Raya! :D

oh, yea ?

2008-09-25T12:36:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 8th months , Itzel :D
i love you like there's no tomorrow.
be good girl ok ? muaaacks!!!

:D

2008-09-20T17:32:00.002+08:00

8 more days left to N level. oh c'mon guys, let's hit the books together! :D

i love you baby :D

2008-08-25T18:04:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 7th MONTHS, Baby Itzel :D
i will always love you!*hugs & kisses*

oh , yes ?

2008-08-22T15:11:00.003+08:00

first thing .

Happy 18th Birthday , Qamarul Arifin ! :D
may your dreams come true and goodluck in everything you do !
and last but not least , last long with your girlfriend eh :D

im done with that. so, what's next? i was planning about what i'm going to do after my O's in 2009. and i planned to go SHATEC instead of poly . i dont know why i made such decision. i went to the official website just now and i was shocked with the fees. it was more than what i expected. as for diploma in hotel management, it cost $20,955. interesting eh? haha! im gonna make my way to shatec ! :D

friends !

2008-08-21T17:20:00.003+08:00

i think this is the only chance for me to say everything that i want to say to my friends . i was blessed with the great companions from all of you . thank you for everything . thank you being there for me when i need you all . thank you for all the fun we had for the past few years . i really appreciate everything ! thank you once again . gonna miss each and everyone of you ! :D

ok done with that . im not trying to be emo here but in fact this is my true feeling . im not prepared to leave them or see them leave and stepped into another world . being with them for almost 4 years and you'll find it hard to forget them . i love you guys alot !

let's countdown

2008-08-18T17:26:00.002+08:00

oh my god ! everybody , let's do a countdown starting from today . it's 15 days to N level !!! it's like 2 week and 1 day to the next big thing . i've not yet even started revising my work and i've not yet falling in love with my books . it's time to press the 'panic button' now . haha !

i miss what i missed !

2008-08-02T14:26:00.002+08:00

i was touched by her post . i viewed my friend's blog and she caught my attention . i read her post and i was touched . i know she missed dancing and so do i . i missed all those fun and laughter we shared among each other . i reminisced the fun we had in Bali ; kept freshed in my mind especially when we had wrestling on the bed :D i had so much fun there . apart from that , i miss having performance outdoors too . but now , we have to step down and you see how fast time flies . the juniors are now taking over us . all the best to all the juniors ! (: to all the seniors , it's time for you to buck up in your studies . goodluck for your n level which is drawing near . all the best and study hard ! :D

anyway , prelim has ended yesterday and it's time for us to prepare for our next big thing which is n level . it's 31 days away from us . so much for us to cover up all the topics and stuffs . i'll set my blog to hiatus for the time being . please leave all your tags and i'll reply as soon as possible :D next up , on 31st august , we'll be having our last performance at white sands . do come down yaw (:

i miss what i missed !

prelims fever !

2008-07-31T17:06:00.004+08:00

currently , i'm having my prelims now . all i can say that i'm not mentally prepared for this prelim as i have insufficient time to study and managed my own time . like what some people said , "you have to start to love all your textbooks now before it's too late." i'm not 'in love' with them yet BUT i have to . take a look at the calendar now , it's only 33days left before N level . which means , i have to buck up ! oh yes , everything's gonna change after that . hah !

anyway , today's paper was sucks . because what i've studied this morning was not in the paper and i was like cursing my teacher . haha ! art was superb great although my angel looks awful in the prep work but it turns out nice in my final layout . heh . i have insufficient time to complete that piece ; 3hours is not enough laa eh . oh and by the way , i've not yet completed my 3rd prep work and i handed it in with only two pictures on it . and i'm fucking sure that incomplete work will pulled my marks down . mau bet tak ? haha .

tomorrow is my last paper . and after that , it's time for me to sleep at home because i've not sleeping quite well these few days :D followed by that , gonna start mugging and make myself to fall in love with my textbooks . so yea , this blog will be in hiatus for the mean time . will be back as soon as possible ; promised ! (:

oh , i loved today ! don't ever asked me why . part of the reason is i've been laughing throughout the day and i had fun talking to my one and only tarzan on the phone ! hahah . kan3 ? hahaha

and before i end , i would like to wish something to this two people .

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY , MAFAZI AIMAN !
hope you had fun yesterday :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY , MAMA !
iloveyou !

HELLO people ! :D

2008-07-27T16:19:00.002+08:00

oh hello people . this blog is NOT dead ! please do keep all your tags coming in . i'll be busy over this past few days or maybe month . i'll reply all your tags as soon as possible ; promise ! :D anyway , it's 37 days before N level .

oh, very well.

2008-06-13T14:59:00.003+08:00

It's hard for me to say the things that i want to say sometimes.
There's no one here but you and me.
And that broken old street light. lock the doors, leave the world outside.
All i've got to give to you are these five words and I.

Thank you for loving me; for being my eyes when i couldnt see.
For parting my lips when i couldnt breathe
I never knew i had a dream,
Until that dream was you

Cross my heart, i wear no disguise.
If i tried, you'd make believe that you believed my lies
You pick me up when i fall,
you ring the bell before they count me out.
If i was drowning, you would part the sea, and risk your own life to rescue.

And thank you for giving me the wing when i couldnt fly.

DANCE EXPLOSION 3 CHAMPIONS :D

2008-06-08T12:18:00.003+08:00

proudly to announce that WE ARE THE CHAMPION for ethnic and cultural category in Dance Explosion 3 :D two years in the row . thank you to those who come down and support us. your support is appreciated . and thank you to teachers and instructor for tolerating our nonsense throughout this dance and also, in Bali. we really appreciate it a lot :D

oh yea, i've decided not to update about the bali trip. if i update bout it, it's gonna be a long entry for you.

Dance Explosion 3 (:

2008-06-07T10:43:00.003+08:00

hello people. im finally back to singapore. miss me ? hee. gonna upload pictures and update about the bali trip soon after dance explosion final ! :D

anyway, today, dance explosion final. do come down and support us. will be held at whitesands shopping centre open field. (: the whole event will start at 7.30. see you guys there !

hello :D attention please

2008-05-30T11:03:00.003+08:00

great good news. the dancers are qualified to the next round which is the FINAL round for dance xplosion 3 this year. so, i would like to take this opportunity to thank those who vote for us. we really appreciate it a lot.

do come down and support us :D the FINALS will be held on 7June.

anyway, it's gonna be 2 days away before leaving to Bali. I'll be back to singapore on the 6th June. so, this blog will be in hiatus. do tag on my tagboard, oke ? will reply as soon as possible . have a nice long holidays people! :D

jyeah, it's sucks

2008-05-28T18:09:00.004+08:00

to be exact, left another 4months to Nlevels.
to be exact, it's already 3 and a half months.
to be more exact, it's going to turned 4months real soon
see how fast time flies.
and all i can say is, in physically, im doing perfectly fine.
and in mentally, it's totally sucks. why?
because i'm not helping myself to be strong and encounter everything. i forced myself to be okay when i'm not.
yes, i am pretending

it may sounds weird and yes, it is.
i pray as hard as i can,
thankful to the one above for creating me.
i lead the life and it seemed that i chose the paths which led me to what i am now.

i'm insecured and guilty with my feelings.
these sentence have been playing in my mind every now and then.
should i give him a chance?
or should i trust him again?
or should i just give up in everything?
it's not that i don't want to give him any chances. it's not that i don't want to trust him anymore. it's too difficult to gain my trust on him.
it's just that i'm afraid that he will repeat his mistakes again.
forgive him is a yes, but to forget the incident completely is absolutely no.

im still thinking and wondering the reason why.
why must he did that to me?
why didn't he tell me the truth?
why must he twist the fact?
what makes him do that?
it's still in my mind till now and forever it will.
seriously.
and right NOW, i'm still thinking.

everyday reminisce about the past.
of a love we thought would last,
how we used to be when it was you and me.
how did it all disappear so fast.
there are days that i can't forget, there are things that i now regret
every night when i'm laying in my bed, i hear your voice going round in my head.
think of all the things i could have done and all those things i could have said.
i know now what i've got to do, it took time but now i've realised how much i'm missing you

p.s boy, if you know that i'm referring to you or you feel offended with my entry, IM SORRY!

to cut it short, i'm leading a very complicated life.

Happy Mother's Day :D

2008-05-11T11:29:00.003+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mothers in the world.

and to mama, you're the strongest woman i've known in 16 years.
you're always be with me when i need you.
i love you and yes i do.
without you here, i'm nothing.
thank you for showering me with all your love and care.
and i'm sorry if i've hurt or disappoint you in these 16years of my life.
forever mama, i will always love you.
Happy Mother's Day, mama :D

BALI, here i come :D

2008-05-08T16:41:00.004+08:00

before i start things off, i would like to wish,

HAPPY BELATED 16th BIRTHDAY, azura.

may dreams come true :D *hugs & kisses*
and sorry eh, i grab your pic from your blog! (:

okay done. finally, prelim is officially OVER! yup, i think i need more time to sleep at home. because i've been spending my nights for the past few days. oh yea, i can feel the sense of relief now.

oh, it's gonna be about a few more weeks before leaving to BALI! yeehaa~ *bali, here i come!* i'm looking forward for that trip :D i hoped it's gonna be fun la. okay, cut it off.

anyway, i'm looking forward to lead a new life :D

oh, he didn't care about me anymore!

prelim stress. whoots~

2008-04-22T17:52:00.003+08:00

firstly,

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, SHAWAL lo leh!
may all your dreams come true :D

okay done. anyway, prelim starts today and yea, i did spend my night revising my work. i think most of my nights. so, i'll be quite busy and this blog will be hiatus. will update more after my prelims. to passerby or friends, do leave a tag on my tagboard. (:

2008-04-16T18:06:00.008+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO ME! yeehaa~

oh yes, im taking this opportunity to thanked those who wished me. Names are not in sequence.

- Eka
- Yuri Eddy ♥
- Boi
- Razif
- Fih
- Hafiq
- Adek Mira
- Papa
- Mama
- Nash
- Fareha
- Noor
- Adek Hanif
- Mama Su
- Huda
- Hilyah
- Lela
- Mafazi
- Idafih
- Hidayah
- Jannah
- Shawal
- Zubir
- Luthfi
- Halijah
- Jass
- Khairiani
- Clarice
- Sarah
- Yvonne
- Ain
- Khairul
- Boon Chuan
- Yuang Chin
- Nelia
- Jian Sheng
- Syafinah
- Serphina
- Lim Xin Ying
- Hafiz
- Benson
- Amir
- Shaiful

anyone i missed out? oh, i had lots of fun with them; i miss the fun. and to fareha and hidayah, thanks for the adidas perfume. to eka and jannah, thanks for the blouse. to the boys and honeybunches, thanks for the cake and the sabo! i really appreciate it a lot.

2008-04-06T17:12:00.002+08:00

oh HELLO people! :D currently doing my last minute prep studies which must be handed in by tmrw. and yea, i've been doing it since morning and now, im out of ideas. oh hell! my mind is not working anymore. oh yea people, am just waiting for the day; 10days away! haha. yeehaa~

2008-04-04T12:48:00.002+08:00

ooh, i miss talking with noor! :D nk lagi bole ? haha. yea, chatted with him on the phone until 3 in the morning. whoots~ so yea, he accompanied me thru the night. thanks eh noor! :D ended the conversation at around 3.30am. yupyup

anyway, im not at school today because im sick and i know im gonna miss a lot of lessons today. hopefully i can coped with it la eh. oh ya, i've not yet finished my art prep studies which i must hand it in by 15th april. OMG! it's like 2weeks away. oh no~ and prelim is like 18days away. urgghh!! -__-

so i guess i shud start studying now.

2008-04-03T17:56:00.003+08:00

hello earthlings.

since that boy asked me to update about him, i shall fulfill his wish! first, i miss him like fucking a lot. and HELLO boy, i SAYANG u oke? -__- oke happy ? haha. love awak k?

so yea people, no post for today (: enjoy ur day!

13more days to go!

2008-03-30T16:02:00.008+08:00

28 March.

it's speech day today and there's no school in the morning. yeehaa~ the whole event starts at 5 and yea , i'm nervous. so , before everything , meet up with all the other dancers outside the gate . whatever it is , today's performance was a blast ! the second best successful event . yup , the first successful event was starburst which was held at NYP last year . i'll update all the photos and also video soon ; i promised ! the event ended with joys and tears :D after packing all stuffs , headed to have dinner with the rest. yup, supposed to go home with mafazi, fareha, amir, luthfi and zubir but they have to go first. oh yea, i took a photo with mr danny. yeehaa~

oke, i miss you boy! :D

31st March

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, HYKAL! :D
may ur dreams come true.
missmiss you like alot! (:

2008-03-24T20:12:00.002+08:00

Oh God, please do answer my prayers. I can't even moved on or bear with the situation. it's been like almost 2weeks; a month eversince im apart from him.

to start everything off today, i was absent from school due to some reason. the second reason, i was at the airport till midnight just to send my sis off. next, i couldn't even open my eyes the next day. and i don't feel like going to school for today. how i wished holidays can be much more longer! :D

oke, referring to the sentences above in itallic. i wasn't hoping something miracle to happen and i wasn't hoping something bad to happen too. i'm just confused and worried for that boy. being apart from him is a great challenged for me to encounter everything by my own. im just hoping that God would answer my prayers that i send to him everyday.

and to that boy,
i'll be waiting for your messages. if you happened to pass my blog, please leave me a message or call me.

2008-03-19T18:57:00.002+08:00

Okayyyy people! Look up. New skin, NEW URL. so pls keep updated and for those who have not yet relink me, please do so as soon as possible. k? thank you!

2008-03-16T17:40:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, ZULHILMI!
best buddy since primary school.
wish you all the best in everything you do! :D

&&

to Miss Yani,
Semoga perkahwinan cikgu berkekalan hingga akhir hayat.
Be happy always cos WE LOVE YOU! :D

ooh, today was a great day; oh yeah. nk lagi, bole? lol.

2008-03-05T19:38:00.004+08:00

i never want to lose you. you showed me the meaning of love eversince you stepped into my life. and since then, i made a vow that i don't want to hurt or leave you. you meant a lot to me; seriously. i never love a guy as much as i love you. and yes, we've made a promised that we wont leave each other. remember?

sometimes, you may think that i don't care abt you. no, i've been always care for you and i always do. i've forgiven all your mistakes and every bits of your mistakes. i don't want you to repeat all those mistakes that make me disappointed.

im sorry of what i've done. deep right from the bottom of my heart; i'm sorry! i still need you in my arm to guide me thru.

ooh, why am i feeling this way? OMG! i need him.

i need you still.
i need you to guide me thru!

2008-03-04T17:25:00.004+08:00

it's the second day of the week and everything seems to flow very well. just a few more days to holiday. and yup, it's time for me to settlw everything single thing once and for all :D

less than a month to prelims. less than a few weeks before the deadline for our art prep studies. less than 7months to N level. less than everything to clear things up. and see, how am i supposed to do it? oohhhhh, i really need to buck up! oh yes.

money issues. i've been using alot of money this year or should i said for these few months. and i think i should start saving my own money and for the trip to Indonesia too! hee

okayyyyy, back to story. school was perfectly fine although the weather was quite cold. & i've started to fall in love with mr. M! i used to hate him then. but now, he changed my life and turned me into a better person. and actually, i've fallen for him since this year. guess who? it's mr. Mathematics! lol. OMG! am i dreaming? oh hell yea, i'm not kidding you! that mr. M if in reality doesn't really exist in my life. i would rather be with the guy who i love! heh :D next, physics. got back our class test we did that day. and i'm not suprised that i scored 33/35 because it's an open book test :D

and i'm craving for food; a lot of food. i don't know why and what happened to me for these few days. i've been eating a lot every now and then. did anyone of you curse me? -__- ps. somebody, anybody, whoever. please get me some donuts and chocolates and carrot cake and chocolate waffle and strawberry red tea. can? heh

oh and by the way, all the best for the tournament eh, takraw boys! :D can i have today again, please?

2008-03-03T19:43:00.004+08:00

it wasn't a good start this week; everything was in the mess. i wasn't expecting something badddd to happen la but it's already happened. how i wished i could turned back the time again. i should not tell you in detail

anyway, to my hunn and bff, it's time to face the reality. tell yourself that you're strong to encounter each and every single of your problems. do not give up easily and we always be there for you. cheer up! :D

next upppp. instead of going beijing, we'll be going Indonesia. yupyup, this coming june holidays for 5days. miss me on those days k? haha. much much loves :D

you're my everything.
my life and my soul which i never wanna lose it.

2008-02-24T10:01:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, HUDA! :D
may your dreams come true.

All i can do now is to praise to God. I couldn't believe that i passed my common test although i studied last minute :D and i need to study real hard for upcoming prelims. heehaw~

anyway, this is the highlights of what happened yesterday in school.

23rd Feb 08

As usual, there's art in the morning. -__- lesson starts at 8 but we purposely came in late. Had my breakfast with honeybunches. then, went to school. was caught and get scolded by the security guard. why eh? because we wore slipper to school instead of shoes. he lectured us and asked us to buy plaster. so, whoever asked why, we must answer ' we injured our legs'. pathetic la kan? -__- . get our stuffs done in the art room and i can say that i had lots of fun although that teacher pressurised me a lot. lessons ended at 12plus. and yes, i miss the day today!

2008-02-13T16:29:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, SHAHRIL!
da besar shei bdk tu. anyway, may your dreams come true :D

Kay people. I'm not in the mood to blog for these few days. Don't ask me why la eh. haish
And to the new couple, hope you guys last long! If you happened to past my blog, i think it's my opportunity to say " I'm SORRY".

No matter how hard i must accept the fate,
my heart will always loving you and no one else! i swear.

2008-02-11T17:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, FIRDAUS!
may ur dreams come true :D

2008-02-09T10:24:00.000+08:00

How i wished that i could turned back all the times i had.
How i wished i could be strong like before.
How i wished that i could apologized to Aini personally.
I know it's already past but it's too hard for me to forget about it.
To forget of being two-timed by a guy whom i really love and whom i really trust.
I felt guilty after knowing that he need Aini more than me.
I think i should give her the chance to love him. And i don't think he need me anymore.
I feel like walking away from this relationship and hide myself from reality.
I've lost my entire trust in him and i'm trying my best to regained it.
My heart says that i should leave him but my love is too strong and it's pulling back telling me that i should wait for some other time.
How am i supposed to gain that trust again?

2008-02-06T14:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY, YURI EDDY!
may ur dreams come true :D
i love you !

2008-01-19T15:19:00.000+08:00

ooh, at last it's Saturday. I apologized if i've not been updating my blog since then. Kinda busy lately with school stuffs :D

A few 'exciting' things happened lately.

1) Money. In the need of cash now. $47 for art, $20.50 for yearly pay, $5.30 for English 'N' level book, $4.10 for Physics 'N' level 10 years series book, $17 for shirt. and you'll see, how much i've spend just for this month.

2) CCA carnival. It was a blast. The sec ones are cute except for some students which i feel like slapping their face. and the students are not that supportive enough.

3) Parents-teacher conference. my parents did not come down for this meeting. so, went to school with my darlings. instead of listening to the speech, talked to them and laughed. they made up my day (: sayang korang many2 k.

eh eh. my hot hot takraw boys will be going bedok north sec this monday . whoots~ gdluck boys!

and oh, my life is ain't getting any better! booo~

p.s it's totally not my fault for losing my temper towards you. asked yourself of how you treat me and talked to me. the answer is in you!

boy, love me tenderly!

2008-01-14T17:28:00.000+08:00

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Happy 1 year 1mth, my love!

2008-01-04T16:35:00.000+08:00

whoots! sorry for not updating my blog for sooooo long. anyway, happy new year! :D
basically, back to school as usual like before. meet up all my friends and yea, im happy to see them once again. i miss them alot la sheii!

so, first day of school was boring. have such a long talk in the hall before welcoming the new badge of sec 1. and to my suprise, it's hard for me to spot malay students in there. anyway, that's not important at all && i met new classmates. :D i have a big class now as to compare my previous class which only have 29 students whereas now, i have 36 people! haha. new form teacher and new classmates, how wonderful! :D

2007-12-14T14:16:00.000+08:00

All my life I prayed for someone like you
I thank God that I, that I finally found you.
You're all that I've ever known, when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,
You turned my life around, you picked me up when I was down,
I promised to never fall in love with a stranger, you're all I'm thinking of. I praise the Lord above, for sending me your love. I cherish every hug,
I REALLY LOVE YOU! and thank God for giving me the chance to fall in love once again.

HAPPY 1ST YEAR ANNIVERSARY, HUNN!

2007-12-06T12:40:00.000+08:00

new skin is up. (: ok, you get no updates for the past few days. don't bother to ask me why. i guess some of you should know the reason why! :D *shhh* and this blog is not dead yet; it's still alive. just leave your tags and i'll reply to it soon. no worries, aites? ok best! sayanggg korng! :D

2007-11-27T12:52:00.000+08:00

im sorry for not updating my blog for about 2weeks. i swear that i'm not in the mood to update. this darling blog of mine will be in hiatus for maybe a few days. sorry for the inconvenience caused. (: i'll update soon. just leave me a tag and i'll promise to reply all the tags. toodles. take care, readers. oober loves! :D

2007-11-13T09:59:00.000+08:00

ooh, the boys didn't win! too bad; but its okay guys. there's always another time (: i had fun with them at LJS. nothing special happened today actually. :D

just dropping by to my friend's blog and he actually criticized the malays in OUR class. who else was there if not WE? also, he called us bitchasses. what's wrong with you, bastard? as if you didn't make any noise in class like we always did? you're such a pain in the ass! even, he recommended the teachers to split us out from class. i'd be happy if you're the one who's out of class. seriously! we've been tolerating ur nonsense and vulgarities not to us but to the teachers. how rude my friend could be. grrr~ and because of you, im not in the mood. bloody BUSTARD.

&& to that person who's reading this, get this clear in your fucking brain.
we don't hate you for who you are but your attitude make us hate you! especially your vulgarities; can you stop those vulgar for once or just keep your mouth shut? you happy, we happy! don't make the world hate you! -_-

lets move on! school holiday sucks. too many events coming up and my pocket is dry. i hope you guys know what i mean. :D tmrw's will be nana's birthday and yet, i've not decided what to buy for her and also her sis. hmm. what should i buy eh? *thinking* oh, i guess i should stop here and start thinking! hee. sorry guys. more updates soon. take care, readers! <3>

2007-10-31T16:42:00.000+08:00

Surprised and furious at the same time.it seems like everything stops.I just have to say this to you.I don't know what to do,neither do I know what to say.It seems like all this will never end.Please give me time to think.I can't bring myself to forgive you and to forget whatever has happened. im sorry ! i love you dy!(:

2007-10-28T21:50:00.000+08:00

28 Oct 07

Ok, new skin is up. And i know, i've not been updating my blog for about a week. Im just not in the mood to blog. (: Well, im back. More updates coming up!
But before i start, im sorry if my entry for today is not what you expected. :D Ok, sec3 extended program will start tomorrow for 2weeks. Back to school as usual every morning while the rest are enjoying their holidays. hmpph!

29 Oct 07

Woke up at 5.45am. why? because i have to be back to school ! -_- take a bath and get ready to go. Waited for my honeyb at the lrt station (: Lesson aint getting any better. I was trying to pay attention but i can't. Honeyb(s) and i was caught by the principal because we were talking in class. There she goes her lecture. Just don't involved our parents in this matter. Wasnt in the mood to talk after that. darah up uhh! haix~ Forget bout it.

2007-10-19T19:24:00.000+08:00

here's my end of year results. i must said that i improved a lot! haha. oh, shuddup. -_-

Overall results

English- passed
Math- failed
Combined science- passed
Art- passed
MT- passed
Social Studies- passed

and that means, i have to study a lot more harder next year! (: woohoo~

and baby, i love you! :D

2007-09-24T20:46:00.000+08:00

"I've fallen in love with you and I'll never let you go. I love you more than anyone, I just had to let you know. And if you ever wonder why, I don't know what I'll say, but I'll never stop loving you, each and every day."

It's been like 2weeks and 5days since he passed away. And only God knows how much i miss him. =( I know i've not been blogging since then. I was not in the mood to blog. End of year exams is just less than a week and i really have to start studying now. No more slacking around or sleep in the class anymore. 2weeks more to prepare prep work for my art and yet, i've not choose any theme. Should i choose flow, crush or bending? Will be having a hard time choosing! heh. Help me, can? And hunns, thanks for lighting my day on Saturday! thanks eh. =D aku sayang korng la! muaxx muaxx ~

2007-09-17T20:42:00.000+08:00

Allah, please give me the strength in everything i do. Today was a very bad day indeed. Bad news after another incident happened. How i wish i could turned back all those times once again. haix~ I wont post a long entry today.

To Hana, be strong and don't give up. You'll always have us to listen with all ur problems. And to Sarah, get well soon. Hope to see you again! (:

2007-09-06T18:53:00.000+08:00

MEMORIES

HAJI OSMAN BIN HAMID
departed on September 5th, 1658 hrs.

i'll always pray for you granddad!
May God bless your soul
and of course,
im gonna miss you

2007-08-25T11:31:00.000+08:00

Im so pissed off with a lot of people for these few days and this behaviour of mine does not really pleased them. I just have no idea what is going through my mind right now. I have not been replying some of my friends' msges and im so sorry especially those who had been waiting for my reply last night. SORRY! =(

2007-07-31T15:39:00.000+08:00

Boy, i think i should tell you this one more time. And i hope this will go thru your mind again.
I love you and i need you in my life. I love you and no one else. Because all those love will not be erased from my heart. I have the fear of losing you and i have the fear of breaking my own heart. No matter wat happen in future, i'll always love you with all my heart and i've made a promised to you and it will be kept in my heart. I promise not to break all those promises and words. I love you too much and that's why all those small mistakes can break my heart. And forever, i will always love you!

Oh, i feel so pissed off by all those messages. And i feel so guilty for breaking someone's heart. I don't have any intention to do that but it's just that i couldnt accept him. I dont need his love right now and i dont need anybody else in my life. Why cant he leave me alone for once? Why did he keep bothering me with all those messages? I just cant take it anymore. haix